AfIqAh AiSyAh ^_^

i wonder…
why do people keep giving promises
when they know they just cant keep them
or perhaps to show some effort
to make them really happen

i even wonder…
why people might easily say
that they will always be there for u
when they are nowhere to be found
during the most needy hour

have u ever wondered…
why people even bother to show they care
when the very next day they can totally abandon u
and why
oh why do people always talk about feelings
when they themselves can appear very heartless at times

i have always wondered…
why people need to talk about long-lasting friendship
when even a short relationship is so damn hard to achieve
and why do we bother to blame other people
when we ourselves are full of flaws

doesnt it make u wonder…
how lord is great
that we are given brains
to go hand in hand with the heart
though the heart might bleed
but the brain can tell it to stop and just be strong

my brain is slowly getting a bit burned as i have spent my entire day in my small house. exams are just around the corner and that is why! or else, i would never want to be stuck in here with books and more books especially on weekends. and now, my mood to write a blog is back. haih, why is my mood only comes during weird times. okay2, i will just make a short write-up and continue studying. hopefully!!
 

these past few weeks have been a quite a hassle to me as there are a lot of reports to be done and not forgetting that my final exams are starting in just a few more days. everytime i got a little bit pressure i tend to remember my family. it is hard for me as they are not anywhere near me to console me like they always do when i was young. all i can do is to give them a tinkle once in a while. just by hearing their voices have made my day. to know that they are still living healthily is all that matters.

however, i have to learn to swallow the fact that i have to continue life no matter how much painful it is having my beloveds very far from me. i have now learned to appreciate those who are near to me more than before. like, so much more! i am more than grateful to be here in kobe as i can proudly tell everyone how happy i am to have my fellow kobeians just like my own family. though we all come from very much different kind of world, we are so much like sisters and brothers here. helping each other is not a rare thing to us. every little thing we have done together has been so meaningful to me.

there is not a single day that goes by without me having the broadest smile on my face. i really am happy to know each and everyone of u here. in a few more days we will know our new junior(s) from malaysia. and whoever u are, i am more than happy to welcome u as a new member in kobe! ^_^

(today is the farewell dinner for kak leha n encik ashraf but i am quite busy that i couldnt join them. just wanna say thank u to kak leha n encik ashraf for everything u have done to us. may allah bless u n i hope everything goes well in malaysia!)

i better make a move, but before that, i would like to wish everyone all da best for kimatsu shiken(final exams). may the force be with u! =)

jyaa~

this is not a tag or any of that kind, but i think i really need to do this to remind myself. initially my sister asked my family to make a list of what we are grateful of. so, here goes….

afiqah aisyah is truly grateful that:

1)she is a muslim

2)she is still alive

3)she is loved by her family

4)she can always depend on her family on anything

5)she has some really great friends such as mimi, mala, daud etc2

6)she was born perfectly normal

7)she loves the subjects she is learning in class

8)today is a holiday(and she has spent the day meaningfully )

9)she has really nice seniors and a few great juniors who really make her days in kobe memorable

10)she is healthy and has more than enough food to consume everyday
and she believes that the list will never stop! =)

alhamdulillah!!

somehow i just dont feel that special anymore.
as i browsed through the internet, i realised that recently many people share the same name with me. iyaaaaaaaghhhh~!! but most of them are aisyah afiqah. and there are also a few other ‘afiqah aisyah’s. but of course parents would want the best names to be given to their new born daughters. i perfectly understand that afiqah aisyah seems to be the perfect name (*wink*)

lets take a look at the meanings of each name:
afiqah- sangat pemurah dan berpengetahuan
aisyah- hidup bahagia

now, go ahead n figure why people just love my name
(oh well, i guess i still am lucky to be the one and only AFIQAH AISYAH BINTI SURIYADI =) )

disclaimer: this entry might be sensitive to some people. please read at your own risk… hahahha

      the other day i had a conversation with my junior on how people spend their time these days. as electrical gadgets have taken place at young people’s heart, it seems that everyone cant really live without them. be it gameboy, nintendo, ipod or anything of such, people tend to bring them along wherever they go. my junior couldnt believe his ears when i told him that i dont play with games since small. all i have ever played with were the old-fashioned tv games. seriously speaking, i dont find it necessary to have such things. we dont need ‘things’ to make us happy. even during our parents’ days, they didnt have these kind of stuff but they can still enjoy their lives to the fullest.

      but then again, i may be fortunate to value life as it is as i grew up in a family that can communicate well and all we need is each other’s company to feel happy. it doesnt take much to fill our day. we dont even have to do anything fancy or spend much money. personally i enjoy spending my free time by just hanging out, chit chating or eating together with anyone i am closed to. take a time out and enjoy the ‘real’ world is what happiness is all about. once my senior said, ’sasuga afiqah da ne..’ (no doubt it’s afiqah) when i told him all i did since small were talking and spending most of my time with my family. i tend to talk a lot because i enjoy doing so. connecting with real people is so much fun rather than clicking and pressing some buttons. so not worth it!

realistically, what do we ever get in return? those stuff do not remain forever but people’s doing can really touch our heart.

while everyone is busy talking about political issues and the world wide problems, i am still in the house foolishly thinking about what friendship means. some people say friends are those who are always with u no matter how. my family always think i have many friends. oh yes, of course i do. but do i have real friends? true friends who will remain forever? during school days people will never forget to say sweet nothing such as: friends forever.

wow! nice words aren’t they? eventually i have matured enough and can see things more clearly now. i now stand that friends come and go.  of course they do. people change and life will never be quite the same as before. everyone has followed different paths and it’s more difficult to have the paths cross again. since i am studying in japan, it is not easy to contact my friends often enough and in a year i only come back home once. sometime around august and september like now.

before i came home for holiday, i have received many messages and emails from friends to meet up, to reunite bla bla bla. of course i was looking forward for the moment. oo yeah…. really promising! now i only have like 10 more days and still so many friends i haven’t met. even the one i thought my best friend forever has been so quiet and nowhere to be reached. i really wonder why people even bother to show that they are so friendly to public when they actually know that they dont really have the time and initiative to meet up.

friendship is a 2 way thing isn’t it? and why do i have the feeling i  was the only one adjusting and finding suitable dates to meet up? when they can’t show up, all they did was to text me and i heard nothing from them again ever since. can’t they then try to find other dates to make it happen? it is so ridiculous to show how much they care when they actually don’t.

oh well, it might happen again next year. but i know more than to be angry with them. after all, they dont play a big role in my life as far as im concerned. i still have the few which i can really rely on. at least during this 2 months holiday, i can recheck on who my true friends are. those who really mean their words. those whom i really appreciate. i am sure u all know who u are.

whose anniversary is it today?

hahaha… actually i just realised that it has been exactly a year since the last time i wrote something in this blog. some changes have been made that the blog looks rather different now. oh well, actually it’s not my own doing. friendster does it everything for me. i kinda like the new layout and style. a lil bit more cheerful i might say. the previous skin i chose was dark and gloomy. time for a change i guess!

well, nothing much to write down here. really no idea on what topic to discuss. oh well, since it is ramadan, i guess it is still not late for me to wish selamat berpuasa. hope everyone fasts well and hope that everything is much much better than the previous ramadan.

ok, it is 20 minutes after midnight. my eyes are really heavy now. i’ll be writing more soon!

i sure hope so!

ok. don’t panic. i can do this. it’s just a matter of twisting it to the right and voila, everything will be back to normal….

ughh…..

this is harder than i thought. hurm… let’s try with the hair dryer. it might help the hair to untangle.

tik tok tik tok…. the time is ticking but the big amount of hair is still stuck to the hair brush… huwaaaa~ i feel like giving up…

it all happened when i offered to wash my mother’s hair, and also to dry it up… well, trying to be a helpful daughter… that’s what i thought, at least! but somehow, when my mother tried to teach me to use a comb while drying the hair, some of my mother’s hair got stuck on the comb’s brush…. fuhh~ it was a real mistake to think that it’s not a big deal… after almost half an hour, and still not a sign of success, my mother almost wanted me to just cut off her hair…

oh no no no… i won’t let that happen mummy!

thus, with such difficulties and lots of conditioner involved, i somehow managed to let the hair off the hook!! huh!!! that was such a relief!!!

hurm… at the end of the day, we really had a great laugh…. well, i really had my lessons! never to play with combs ever again…!

one news after another… just before i went to bed yesterday, i was shocked to know that my friend from primary school was admitted to hospital… as i read the sms, i remembered well enough that he had some serious problem concerning his health… due to the problem, his studies were affected too… from what i can recall, he was a bright student, and he shared the same birthday as mine… 26th november… he didn’t miss to wish me through testi and he also mentioned something on the famous people who were born on 26th november… he was also one of those who actually care to read and leave some comment in my blog, which i personally think has boosted my spirit in composing more blogs… hurm, a lot more memories hit me before i could close my eyes…

this morning, i was still hoping that he would be healthy again…. but…. everything is in Allah’s hand… i received another sms from lukman, telling me that he is no longer breathing in this world…. all that i could say was… innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun….

seriously, i will miss him….hope everyone can pray for him too… ya allah, kau cucurkanlah rahmat ke atas roh sahabatku ini…. jadikan lah dia daripada golongan yang beriman dan bertaqwa… amin….

7.

free tissue papers are everywhere! they give you tissue papers as a way to promote or tell you something. hurm, it is rather creative, but do you really think that people actually read the papers that go along with the tissue papers, instead of just dumping the irrelevant stuff into the dustbins? well, it is a good thing for me actually. i don’t have to spend my money on them anymore! i can get them for free, and whenever i need one. yippee~ well, the only problem is now my school bag is already full with those stuff! waaa~ i guess i can open a business selling tissue papers starting from now on…

6.

i feel like i am beginning to be more concerned towards the environment. well, who doesn’t when the system of rubbish throwing is soOo systematic. i mean, i can even differentiate between combustible and non-combustible things. wow! that is a real success for me! i even have this feel of guilt when i accidentally throw some rubbish NOT into their respective baskets. it is like the sorry feeling towards those working at the rubbish department, who would have taken some extra time separating the trashes once again. hurm… not only i am an environmentalist, but i may be a humanist too!

5.

since it is already the end of june, we can feel the changes on the temperature. it is getting higher and higher that i get the feeling as if i am already in malaysia. yeah, good feeling! however, it is funny looking at people bringing along their umbrellas up and down, almost everywhere. actually, it is not something weird to use an umbrella when it is not raining, especially during summer. but i find it is kinda funny for them to use the umbrella even when we can see no sun. such as on cloudy days! hey, the sun is not even there, and it is also not raining. hurm, when i start to think of it once again, oh well, they might just want to be fashionable. their umbrellas are actually pretty cute and trendy. (maybe i’ll  consider of getting flowered pattern umbrella myself! ^_^)

4.

they have some weird but interesting gadgets! on the very first day we arrived at chiisan hotel, somewhere in a rural area of osaka, we were shocked to see how wonderful their toilets were. it is not like the toilets in malaysia are not impressive enough or anything, but it’s just how excited we were to see the modern toilets. they were fully automatic and they had a ‘musical button’ with them. it even had the volume control button. oh, how cool! do they put radio in the toilets? yeah, how lame of us to think of that. we finally found out that the button was just to control the sound of the flush. if you want the sound to be louder, just increase the volume. i can’t see any sense of them inventing such thing. why  do they even need such gadget? do they need it to cover…. oh, wait a minute! i think i am starting to get it! heheheh… you guys, start guessing!! ;p

3.

people here tend to have this , i-am-not-bothered kind of attitude. well, not exactly everybody, but i can say, 90% of them here, which is quite a big number, have that attitude. they are not really bothered when people actually drop something, or even come late during class. they won’t even take the slightest glance to those kind of people. just imagine in malaysia. if you were to drop your pencil case and a big sound went, bang! i am 100% sure that everyone in the class including the teacher will turn their heads around just to take a look at what just happened. and same goes if there were to be late comers. but this situation doesn’t seem to apply in japan. you might just snore in the class and i bet you that nobody will even bother!

2.

guess what, every hour seems like rush hour here. people are running like nobody’s business just to catch the train or just to cross the road so that they won’t miss the opportunity. personally i find it is a good thing! it really shows how serious they are about being on time. however, it is not like the end of the world or anything if you miss the train or the green light. the transportation here is really convenient and undeniably punctual. we can have trains in every 3 to 4 minutes.heheh.. but it is funny when i find me, myself running when seeing other people running. yeah, run girl! run! good form of exercise anyway! ;p

1.

the attention you will get from the people here if you wear a tudung. you shall get a lot of stare everywhere you go. in the train, in a restaurant, in the toilet, or anywhere else. just name it! most comments come from small children. it is interesting and funny at the same time, seeing small innocent looking children look at you with weird expression and start asking loudly to their mothers on things like, ‘mom, why do they wear that thing(the tudung)? don’t they feel hot?’ hahahahah!! and their mothers will give them a warning look and turn back to us with sorry faces and start apologizing. neh, don’t be sorry. not a big deal, really. i feel like a celebrity walking with many people looking. hey, you won’t get that much of attention in malaysia! how lucky of me to actually experience this! if you cross a street with all the cars waiting, you might just want to do like what i feel like doing. yeah, put a broad smile and confidently walk like a model! everyone in the cars is actually looking! ^_^

when we were small, we didn’t know what the world is like. what the world is going to serve us. but i was lucky, i had someone there for me, to tell me the rights and wrongs and to teach me about life.

when we were 7 years old, it was the first time ever to be in school.  many people were not confident in themselves. will the people except us the way we are? and will we manage to make friends with the others? well, people had a lot in their minds. but i was lucky, i wasn’t scared. i had him by my side to tell me that everything is going to be fine. just be myself and take things easily. i smiled, accepted his words and thanks to him, i managed to face the world.

everytime people feel that life is difficult, they might just cry. if i ever i do, i don’t cry that long because i am lucky. i know he will surely come to me and show how easily things can be handled. he  always reminds me never to be manipulated by the situation, but i, myself must be smart in manipulating the situation back. i hold on to his words and i am still surviving till now. ^_^

sometimes, when people feel the world is against them and they have been taken granted for, they will crack and break down. but i am lucky, that i have him to hug and console me. and after that, i will surely feel a lot better. i shall never crack because i know i have someone who is never to take me for granted.

when people fall sick, sometimes they might be weak enough to give up and have no desire to live any longer. but i am lucky i never felt that way. i have never given up, but instead, i am always looking forward to live a good life because i know, he wants me to have the best out of everything.

it is true. i am proud to tell world that i am lucky!!! I AM VERY LUCKY to have him a part of my life. he is always there for me and make me proud to be myself. he has never given up in giving me the best. yes, there is no other than him. it is of course, my GREAT FATHER!

he is the greatest father anyone could ever wished for… to ayah, i love u soOo much… i dedicate this blog for u, wishing u HAPPY FATHER’S DAY! MUAH2!!!! ^_^

hahahaha!!! we just started playing ping pong. well, just for fun actually… since it is free, and also a form of exercise, we find it good for us! hurmm… it was our third time playing it and we just wanted to get the pleasure of perspiring… and i feel it is kinda boring spending the time by myself in the room in the evenings…

after getting the ping pong bats and balls, we went to the gymnasium. as usual, there was loy, the girl from palau. she was on the bicycle, exercising. after a few minutes of playing, loy left us and there we were. playing happily without disturbance from anyone else. we played as we liked without being so fussy with the rules. well, the moment didn’t last long. while enjoying the play, suddenly a chinese man came in, bringing along ping pong sets too. owh! we got company..!

but since he was alone, he used the trackmill and we continued playing… lalalala~ how nice to move around… and suddenly, another chinese man came in. and one man from poland. and not forgetting a man from indonesia. what??? and there’s only one table ping pong! gosh! and they were all sitting on the bench and looked at our amateur style of playing. ahahahha… at first we were not bothered(kejam) because we were only started playing. normally we play a lot more longer.

hurm… but after a while, guilty conscious struck myself. ‘come on afiqah, don’t conquer everything yourself. do share with others!!!’ aaaaa~ ok, so, as a good kaikanmate(err… housemate…?) we gave way to them and i passed my bat to the poland man… (heheheh… memilih orang gak… ;P). just as i sat on the bench, the four of them played doubles and it was hard even to blink my eyes. they were goOoood!! i’m telling u this! they were really really good!! at that very moment i felt myself becoming tinier and tinier and tinier. malunye~ tadi depa tengok kitorang main!! huwaaa~~

however, i really enjoyed looking at their games.  and i even helped them counting the scores.. hahahha… berguna gak! after a few while, i felt like going on the trackmill, so i did. while i was running steadily, yeay~ i noticed that they had finished playing. so they wanted to change pairs. one mongolian lady also just arrived, so she joined, and then they asked hanizah to play together. hanizah tried to reject and reject and reject again, but they kept on saying that is okay and it’s just for fun.. heheh… i saw the incident, so i stopped the trackmill machine to see them playing.. but after a few hits, hanizah surrendered and passed over the bat to me… hehehe… (kachan segan)…

whoa~ even i myself isn’t that good! somebody… help me out of this!!! ahahha… but just to mix around and fit in, i bravely played with them. they were really nice…!!! they taught me the rules and stuff! hey, it was cool!! i sensed that they played easy on me… heheh… i don’t think there ware any smashes!! heheheh… thanks u guys~ the first game i partnered alex, from china. and the next game, i was partnered along with a man from… err… i am not sure myself where he comes from… huhuhu…

well, in all, it was a great experience for me!! met 10 new friends and they were indeed very friendly. they even asked us to join them again. from what edward told me, they play ping pong everyday~ waa~ should i go again? wahahaha… segan aah tak hebat… the people there were like state players! wahahahah!!! so damn good! i could hardly take the balls since they used some screw balls and chopped balls.. isk2…. i figure that there are a lot more things to learn about ping pong…. heheh…

so it didn’t rain. it turned out to be a sunny day. if only we didn’t depend on the weather forecast, we would have already been to marina city… huhu… oh well, but luckily, hanizah and i had a backup plan. yeay~ the good day is not to be wasted after all! we spent our day in kobe town!! since it was saturday, the train was full of people. i really envy them since they were with their family members. a father holding his son’s hand. a mother carrying her daughter and small children playing with their toys… huwaaa~ how i miss my family soOo much!!!

i am in japan but it seems like my soul is not here! everytime i do something, i always think of malaysia. when i went to kobe tower and and saw the lights, i can’t help thinking of klcc and the lights of kl at night.. and when i entered a seafood buffet restaurant, i thought of port dickson! or maybe malacca! my family and i used to eat together at seafood resturants and had a great family time.. when i looked at the sea, kuantan’s beach was right there in front of my eyes… even some musics keep reminding me of the past… hey, this is really disturbing man!!! i wanna live like normal people! (ceh, cam la dah gila… wahahah). not living in another world. sigh~

maybe i really miss malaysia and i miss my family soOo much!!! why is it still june? i hope it will be august soon. i really mean it, like, SOON! hurm… oh yeah, to malaysian prime minister, paklah! selamat pengantin baru~ semoga berbahagia di samping isteri tercinta..! proud to have you as our prime minister!! ^_^

i was getting so bored this evening that i wrote a blog entitled, ‘trapped in the room’… but! i accidentally pressed the back button and forgot to copy the whole thing, so, everything that i wrote had disappeared!! waaaghhh!!!! how frustrating!!!!! all my hard work!!! (hard work ke… hehe)… so, to summarise what i had written, it’s mainly about how dull my life was just sitting in the room without anything to do…. oh, before i forget, i am actually on 12 days holiday due to a spreading disease. hashika, which is just normal measles. the japanese teachers got so freaked out only because one of the students had the disease and the result of that, the whole university is closed! NOBODY IS ALLOWED to enter the university compound. even the libraries are closed! ugh…. it seems soOo ridiculous. in malaysia, demam campak seems so normal. tak cuak pun… heheh.. and now, we are getting the headaches thinking of the classes that should be replaced… later…. waaaa~ i guess this is the first time i don’t like holidays… huwaa…. i wanna go home early…!!! please please don’t take my summer holiday away from me… sob3…

urm… this sudden holiday really didn’t give us enough time to plan where to go… initially, my seniors had planned on going to wakayama, marina city… but then, this afternoon, i received a message from my senior, telling me that the trip was canceled!!! whoa!!!!!!!!! the reason being, it is going to rain this saturday… grr….. the weather forecast here in japan is too advanced somehow!

okay, to get back to the topic… well, i was so bored just lolling in the room and playing with the computer… i guess i will vomit if i spend another day in the room, that i dressed myself up and grabbed my bag. the next thing i remember is being in a shopping complex in sannomiya. i felt better after trying on some clothes and looking at new stuff… hehehe… typical woman i guess! after an hour going around, i met haniza there and we went to the mosque together to perform maghrib prayer. after that, our interesting outing started!! yeay~

we walked to the streets that we have never been to. we saw the beautiful lights of kobe at night. and we even found a new restaurant that we can eat at… hehehe…. we had chinese dinner! yeay~ it was wonderful!! that was my first time having chinese food in japan.. yummy! next, we went to rokkomichi and went for billiard…! heheh… we played 2 games and after that we headed to the playground! huhuhu…. we really had a blast taking some pictures and at the same time looking at the japanese people having gatherings.

and our last stop was at an exclusive restaurant. we had dessert!! wahahaha…. yeah2… i know… it seems like i am always eating, right…? just couldn’t control… wahahah…. well, actually, it was raining, so we looked for a shelter… and the restaurant was the best place!! wakakakak…. yeah2…. lame excuse! hurm… eventhough we had finished our dessert, the rain still didn’t seem like stopping. and the clock showed that it was almost midnight.. what! we need to hurry back home! (sounds like cinderella, huh?)

without umbrella, we ran to the train station and we had to take a free magazine to cover our head from getting wet. in the train, i tried hard not to breathe. i really can’t stand the smell of alcohol… ughhhh… at last, after got a bit wet on the clothes(luckily not on the head), we finally made it home! wahahahah…. it really was an experience! i was really glad to get out from this room of mine, and had some change. well, tomorrow is going to be another day. yeay~ another new experience can be gained! hopefully!!! ^_^

even a few simple words can change our perception. even a short sms can brighten one’s day. i totally agree with this! when i woke up this morning, i wasn’t exactly in the finest mood(still morning i guess!). will it be a good, or just a fair day? i really couldn’t tell. i switched the television on and there it was, the weather forecast. and from there, i knew it would be a gloomy day. sigh~ my mood really depends on the weather i guess.

just when i decided to put my head again on the pillow, i heard my cellphone beeping. ‘ah, a message!!’ i wasn’t expecting any messages especially in the morning… i grabbed the phone and read the message in it. it was from my father. it was just a simple message saying that he misses me so much. i felt so good and he made me believe that he truly loves me. i am so proud to have a father like ‘ayah’. (and of course, a mother like ‘mummy’ too! ^_^)

the message really made my day. just because of those simple words, i had a perfect smile on my face and i believe that it turned out to be one of the greatest days i have ever had. it was a successful day for me. ( well at least, our 1st experiment cooking a mee kari was a success! yeehaa! way to go girl!).

so, what i really wanna say here is… never hesitate to express your feelings even if you feel that it’s nothing much. to other people, it might be everything! believe me, it does matter! muah2, love u ayah. love u mummy! miss u guys soOo much!

hyogo international house is the name of the place i am leaving right now. it’s big and convinient and the train station is only 5 minutes walk from here! how lucky of me! (although the rent is ****** expensive—- 37000yen=rm1050.80).the thing i love the most is getting the opportunity to make friends with people around the world. before i came to japan, i really thought i’ll forget my english since almost everything is in japanese here. however, i was wrong! i think i use more of english here, compared when i was in malaysia… (well, maybe!). in this international house, english is used widely. i make a lot of new friends such as from laos, philippine, vietnam, palau, romania, china, korea etc. we normally meet in the kitchen and also…ehem…at the gymnasium… hehehe… believe your eyes… i DO go to the gym sometimes..! they are very friendly that i forget to feel lonely! ;p

i also feel good at the same time introducing my country to other people. i come from  MALAYSIA! fuh~ it feels nice to be a ‘duta kecil’. hehe… i’m doing fine, i guess! but it’s so hard for them to get my name. well, normally when i introduce myself, they’ll surely thought i said afrika! sigh~ so, to make it simple, i just say, urm… just without the ‘r’. and due to that, they never forget my name ever since. hehe…

i think it’s really getting hot here… i guess i am going out and have the special 3 scoops of ice cream… baskin robins is having an offer during this summer! yummy~ really can’t wait to have my teeth on those delicious ice creams! ok, i am logging out right now! till then! \(^_^)/

it’s just not right. it doesn’t suppose to be this way. after being friends for quite some time, the friendship shouldn’t have ended just like (*snap*) that!

last week a couple of friends visited my friends and i in UM. actually that was the second time they went to 12th college but the first time they came, i wasn’t around. luckily i had the chance to meet them the following day. the funny part was they didn’t expect me to be there since they thought i was no longer in UM. sigh~ and they also informed me that many of my other ex-schoolmates thought of the same thing too. hurm… i wonder who had spread this weird news. so, attention please~ guys!! i’m still doing my foundation in UM with pekah, yatie n ema. please don’t forget that ok! ;-’(

okay, to get back to the prologue, we shared a lot of new ’stories’ that night. and i was shocked to hear that this particular friend of mine,A, had a fight with his very own best friend,B. they had been the best of friends since secondary school and it’s pitiful that they had declared an end to their friendship. and do u want to know the reason why? owh… i’m sure u don’t want to know… but the main thing here, it is INDEED very very sad not to be friends anymore with your beloved friends. is it true, that friends actually ‘come and go’? if it is, u should put your fingers cross everytime you’re making new friends. it is heartbreaking when one day u are very closs to each other and the next day u are just like complete strangers.

however, i cannot agree more when people say that this is actually a normal phenomenon. i feel sorry to those who treasure friendship so much and get really upset when their friends ‘neglect’ them just like that. especially in this kind of situation—> X likes Y more than friends, but Y just doesn’t feel the same way. when X expresses his/her true feelings, Y rejects rather kindly(might also be harsh sometimes) and there goes their so called ‘long lasting friendship.’ Y wants them to be just friends, but X cannot accept it. it sounds familiar, doesn’t it? it might had happened to ur friends, or maybe to urself.

in this kind of situation, normally people will feel sorry to X. which i feel the same way too. but, deep inside me, i really bleed for Y for losing such a good friend like X. well.. why? let’s see.. it is very clear that Y has X to share everything with when they were still friends. but after this ‘confession’ incident, everything has changed. they might not be contacting via phones anymore, and not to mention in real life. if they do, it’s just not the same. hurm.. a few fake smiles , maybe? frustrating isn’t it? sometimes, people DO miss all the sweet memories created in the past. it doesn’t matter whom they were with in those days. the utmost important thing is the things that they have gone through together.

i’m sure there WILL be someone who does not agree with me. but if u do care about ur friends, no matter towards the same sex or not, u will feel the same way i feel in this matter. i do hope that people can face it, and go on with life even after being rejected by someone. %#*!!owh, i have been craping a lot haven’t i?! huhuhu… it really is heartbreaking to end a friendship because of a small matter. (yeah2 i know… it isn’t as small as it seems… but oh well..~)

p/s: this has nothing to do with my friends, mr.A and mr.B. well, since they are both male ;p

till then! daa~

no way!! there is just no way that anyone could be unbelievably good looking! my god, he’s drop dead gorgeous. i’m telling u this. no kidding man, i have never been so serious before. just look directly into his two little green eyes. and look at his style and attitude. man, i can’t get my eyes off him… just..incredible..

well, maybe u all can already guess. this man is not anywhere near my house or my college. he is far far away from me. and, my life. to meet him, is just a wishful thinking. he’s just one handsome actor, the hero from PRISON BREAK… the one and only… WENTWORTH MILLER.. the first time i looked at him, i automatically uttered these particular words:’ehhh… handsome nye mamat nih.. botak pun handsome gak!’ okay, u can say anything that u want. such as: duh~ afiqah only has eyes for handsome young men. well, i don’t really care.. since i think it’s quite true… heehee.. really!

in this show, he acts as michael scofield, a very2 smart engineer who is so determined to take his brother out from the jail as he knows that his brother is not guilty in killing the vice president’s brother. and i have finished watching the first season of prison break. hurm, specifically there were 22 episodes. or were there 23 episodes? urgh, just can’t wait for the second season. my friends and i were seated patiently in front of my friend’s pc this whole week. starting from 5.30 to 7.30pm. yikes, we can’t even leave the chair even for a second because every second was so important to us. i personally think that to make this show needs a really smart guy. if u have been watching this show at tv, u should know what i mean. this boyfriend of mine here, is a damn intelligent guy, that he has never ran out of ideas. his love towards his one and only family he has, who is his brother, makes him going and he has never gave up. i adore his character so much. so so much.

i do hope that i can do the same thing for my family. anyone, it may be my father, mother, brother or my sister. they are the most important people in my life. no one else is more important to me right now. and there will never be one. (even this wenworth miller i’m discussing on).

sigh~ i shall miss him after this… i have no idea when the second season will be out. well, right now the utmost important thing to me is, my mid sem exam. it’s coming in a week time. the first paper is on this coming friday, and the second paper will be continued on the following wednesday.

i need to make a move now. the football game is calling me. both teams look equally as good. ghana vs czechaoslovakia. gee… they are rough! hehe, it’s funny when my sister couldn’t believe her ears when i was actually talking about football while we were on the phone last nigt. well, only once in 4 years kak aini!! anyway, i can’t wait to see u and abang back home in another two weeks time.. insyaAllah.. and… lastly, HAPPY FATHER’S DAY ayah!! it’s already the 18th june… i love u soOo much. i want u to know that u are the best father anyone could have. mmuah2.

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after a month of holiday, all of us were back in UM… sigh~ just the thought of being in the class and studying everything, fully in japanese made me feel dizzy. oh god, please give me the strength to get going. however, when i remembered that we will be the senior, i got a bit excited. wow~ ‘the juniors are coming, and i shall be the senior.’ hehe.. it does sound a bit poyo… but who cares! my floor won’t be as quiet as before, since our seniors had left us. ish, but guess what, NOW it’s a bit crowded in the toilet, rebut ngan diorang pulak.. aiyoo~ satu hal lagi… ;p

hurm… being here in AAJ as a second year student is not as easy as i thought. gee… my weakness, which is to start learning by hard all the terms in japanese. shit! before this, i always heard people say: a word a day, duh~ it doesn’t at all apply here.. it’s like, 100 words a day?? chemistry terms, plus physics, and of course, KANJI. aaaghhh!! to make things worse, we have all kinds of quizes and tests, almost EVERYDAY. ugh… everynight is a torturing night for my head. yeay, let’s cram everything in one head.

heheh.. but hey, i’m starting to feel more relaxed after a few days. i’m getting used to it. like my tour guide always said… slowly2… no rush.. no rush.. hurm, i’m starting to miss him already and feel like taking a flight to europe right now.. huhuhu.. poyos plak… i’m actually very satisfied with my current teachers. they are near excellent!! they really do know what they’re doing. they make me understand, and sometimes much better than the malay teachers explaining in our own language. now i feel that learning is fun. i got the best physics teacher, the coolest maths alpha teacher, the most energetic maths beta teacher, and the most kind-hearted chemistry teacher. what more can i ask for? oh, not forgetting the… most interesting japanese teacher.. heheh.. love all the lessons!!

owh, i think i take too much time here with this laptop. i should have been studying for next week’s chem and physic’s tests.. what?? more testS?? hahahah… no worries! we are used to this kind of life! ^_^ really hoping that our juniors won’t quit and stay put  in AAJ. really a big mistake if they turn down this scholarship. YOSH! GAMBARIMASHOU!!